억지로 바꿀려고 하지 마라

Posted: May 30th, 2009 | Author: flex | Filed under: Purpose | Tags: | No Comments »

몇일 전 노무현 전 대통령이 자살을 해서 서거하셨다. 대한민국 대통령 중에서 그나마 조금이라도 존경을 했던 분이라서 크게 두가지 다른 이유로 기분이 씁씁했다.

노무현 전 대통령의 자살에 대해서 세상 사람들은 현 정권이 죽였다고 한다. 나도 그렇게 생각한다. 평생 깨끗하게 살려고 노력하신 것 같은데 그런 상황에 놓여진 자기 자신이 얼마나 비참하고 힘들었을까.

이명박이 대통령 되면서 난 열분을 토했다. 어떻게 저런 인간을 대통령으로 뽑았냐고. 대한민국 사람들 political mind 전혀없다고. 그런 나라 17년 전 아주 잘 떠났다고. 이명박 정권 끝날 때까지 그 땅 안밟을거라고.

지금은 그냥 그려느니 반 포기 상태다. 이렇게 열분을 토해서 뭐하랴. 바뀌지 않는다. 바꿀려고 해서 전혀 안바뀐다. 그 대상이 바뀌기 전까지는 다 의미 없는 짓이다. 내 속만 상한다. 내 마음만 나뻐진다. 아무 의미 없는 일에 내 시간만 낭비한다.

나이가 들면서 불감증이 생기는 것인가. 아님 내 살 것만 신경쓰는 것인가. 아님 포기 하는 법을 배우는 것인가. 아니, 아주 다 귀찮아지는 것인가. 모르겠다. 그냥 공으로 돌아가고 싶을 뿐이다. 그 마음 때문에 공으로 못 돌아가고 있다.


Chance

Posted: May 4th, 2009 | Author: flex | Filed under: Life | Tags: | 2 Comments »

지난 3년간 직장생활을 정리하자면 average Joe보단 성공적이고 운도 따랐다. 오늘 내 테이블 앞에 또 다른 기회가 펼쳐졌다. 몇년에 한번 올까 말까한 기회. 다 갖지는 못 할 기회지만 욕심이 났다. 그래서 다 갖지는 못하지만 끝까지 최선을 다 해볼 생각이다. 그 기회를 다 활용을 못하겠지만 가능한 선에서 최대한 활용할 수 있으면 그것 자체가 기회이기 때문이다.

욕심이 난다.. 그게 문제이다.

왠지 이번 5월은 대단한 5월이 될 듯 하다.


Hell’s Kitchen

Posted: April 18th, 2009 | Author: flex | Filed under: Life | No Comments »

My wife and I are having a lot of fun with Hell’s Kitchen. Not that we love Gorden Ramsay’s food (we will really visit his restaurant someday), but all the challenges that each contestant has to go through to get to the point where they really want to be.

One really entertaining part of the show is Ramsay’s management skill(?). Some people will say he needs anger management, but I can understand that it is not really his problem that he is swearing and yelling so much. Watch a few episodes of Hell’s Kitchen and you will understand, too, if you understand how difficult restraurant business would be - I personally don’t have hand-on experience but considering all the complaints and even legal action that you can get from customers, he totally makes sense. In fact, it can make people do things better because of the high expectation and relatively lower tolerance. I personally believe in that.

Here is uncensored clips.


Telsa Model S

Posted: April 3rd, 2009 | Author: flex | Filed under: Geeky | Tags: | 2 Comments »

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Telsa has introduced a new model called Model S. Fully electronic car that you can drive around 300 miles with single charge (45 min quick charge). 0-60mph in 5.6 seconds. Wow!

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When I first saw Roadster a few years back, its base price was completely out of my range ($100,000), so I never checked it back. A few days ago, my co-worker mentioned it to me, I didn’t think the design was this good!

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I have been thinking of getting Toyota Prius when my RSX dies (wonder if that will happen in 10 years), but I am changing my mind. Honey, I want this car! I just wish any one of the Big Three doesn’t touch this company so that they don’t fuck it up.

All information including images is taken from www.teslamotors.com.


Managed Code Performance

Posted: March 28th, 2009 | Author: flex | Filed under: Geeky, Testing | Tags: | No Comments »

Yesterday, I spent 2 hours to rewrite one parser code that my report wrote. The goal was to see if the parser could perform better while the code looks more organized and simpler to follow. For every text process, I tend to use the regular expression because of the simplicity and cleanness it provides, but I was not 100% sure if it could overcome the performance issue as Managed Code is known to be slow in many aspects.

The first attempt was disaster as it took probably 2 or 3 times more to process the same amount of data. While I was reading the code again before I gave up, I realized one mistake and one thing that I forgot. Regular expression in .NET is slow by default during run-time unless a specific option is specified during initialization – RegexOptions.Compiled.

http://msdn.microsoft.com/en-us/library/system.text.regularexpressions.regexoptions.aspx

Also here is a good MSDN article about the improving the performance of the base library.

http://msdn.microsoft.com/en-us/magazine/cc163670.aspx